life as myself

feeling burden for a years..
i've been through so many things & problems that conclude most experience in religius stuff, working life, student life, love life, family life..

its been bringing burden to me as the years goin..

i aint ask much.. i feel like i didn't accomplish even a single task that satisfied in one of the field i mention before..

i do pray & belief in god.. that also runs me to be calm sometime, where on the othertime i've been forced to think & think again..

is there a love in space...

at least i've something that i achieve n so on..

do i still keep on believing??

i'm always try to be strong,
try to pretend im strong,

in front of friends, family n colleague

some of them teach me stuff n i glad about it.. but when come to pratical, seems like it kills..

do i need to keep believing??
even if i give up, what will happen next?

its like there no answer for it..

sucks in love life, study live, even past working life..
ohh god...i never confess like this in mylife, allthough im confessing through my blog...

can u show ur miracle???
when im still believe in you?

i feel lonely..
much lonely..
now im down, but im no doubt